Transformation
“I can glimpse the beginning of a transformation within me—though nowhere near complete or even mid-way—and I am starting to fully appreciate the homestay experience as well as myself. For the past few days I have been comfortable and content with being with my family the entire day, something that I had struggled with in Sampela. Every conversation, mistake, awkward but genuine laughter, un-reciprocating baby, new knowledge that blows my mind, and the moments of just being have been thoroughly enjoyable. I crave more intellectually stimulating thoughts and conversations—thirsty for knowledge and connections. I believe that the group has been going through similar revelations, big or small, and we judge and listen and respect. It is harder for me to formulate and verbalize my thoughts about the experience until I leave the place and let my thinking brew in my mind and on paper, I will share some moments here in Langa that have stood out to me, in some way or another.
The whole group learning about traditional houses in the community with—proudly—my host dad.
Giant spiders in the squatty-potty and in my bucket shower room.
Going on a walk around three villages with my host sister Loni and my baby nephew.
Four dinners in one night—the hostesses at every house were too enthusiastic.
The pride when I put together a somewhat complex sentence in Indonesian without the dictionary.
Sitting in front of the cooking fire in silence: cutting, grinding, cooking, and the unspoken conversation. Watching Bollywood, Indo game shows, and Spiderman. Loni’s sweet notes that she translated word by word asking me to shower earlier so I don’t get sick Cara’s host mother telling us her job as a nurse—dealing with infections, respiratory disease, and cancer.
My interviews with villagers I see on their porch and countless awkward encounters but even more rewarding conversations and laughter—eight so far, but have given me endless thoughts.
Discussing systems and beliefs with instructors and peers
Gaining 3-year-old Fania’s trust and drawing with her—something she’s never done before.
I’m still learning and searching and questioning, we all are, constantly, but I think we are on the right track, hopefully. I will be sad to leave Langa, and I know that by the time we come back home, you will hear what we have seen, and see what we have become.”
Della
Indonesia Program Student